After hearing story after story
Sometimes I am deeply disheartened about a few things.
At these times, I don't believe the following are possible for me, or most people without extreme, focused effort:

1. Landing a job that I love passionately and excelling in it to the point where I am recognized and compensated well, so that I can live very comfortably, have enough for two kids' college tuitions and two vacation homes (locations beautiful and expensive).

2. A healthy, loving, HONEST and life-long marriage

3. Changing the world for the better

Why am I disheartened?

I feel mediocre. I feel trapped by society and "this economy." Right now, I couldn't tell you what I want to do for the rest of my life and because of this, I can't imagine being hugely successful in anything. I want to do good, write, travel the world, eat its finest foods, meet its most fascinating people, learn, see and experience...but who doesn't want that? What makes me special? Why do I deserve it over anyone else? So then, the question becomes am I willing to work my a- off, not always necessarily with the prize in sight, and sacrifice any number of things to land that dream job? Right now, I'm not sure how I'd answer. Maybe, I am lazy, or maybe I just don't believe that even my hardest effort would pay off.

My reason for having doubts about marriage...ready? Next time.

Authorjustine lee