Father God, please take care of 妈. She needs you now more than ever, Lord. I know you are a faithful God who hears and answers prayers and I know this is something I have prayed for in the past Lord, but I think this time I'm going to need the most strength I've ever needed. I'm trying, Lord, to not allow myself to dwell in this agony, the thought of losing her. Help me remember that when I am weak You are strong. The thought of 爸 living alone. No more smell of onion pancakes. The table setting just the way she does it...Lord, even the way she shakes her head when she sees what I'm wearing. Lord, give me strength so that when I'm by her side in a few hours I don't break down, so that she just sees hope. Please Lord, give me the strength to help her through this. Bring her peace, Lord. Be with us today. In Christ's name, amen.
Shh shh...please, little one, don't cry. 妈妈 promises when we land to twirl you in the air and pull you in close. Your 爸 and 奶奶 will be so happy to see you so big and healthy. Please don't cry, sweetheart. We'll be there in no time. Let's have fun together on this ride, OK? Shh shh...No crying. We'll look at the sky and the ocean together, outside the window, there, OK? The beautiful blue sky and the beautiful blue ocean.
Why do I always get stuck sitting next to the crying baby? I'm just gonna pop on my headphones as soon as we take off. Watch a movie. Why am I in a hurry to get back to Beijing? Denny will pick me up in a panic. He won't make eye contact for the first ten minutes and when he finally does it'll be to ask me something like it's the most important question in the world. It'll probably be "Do you have enough samples for everyone?" and I'll say "Of course I do, idiot!" and hit him. But then he'll tell 香... Fuck it, I'll go in sitting on my hands.
Full flight. Strain in neck. Shoulders, too. Don't forget, pick up porridge. Extra onions. Sitting across from her smiling face again. Can't leave anymore. Too long. Too, too long.
Ahhhhh, I should have peed before we boarded. At least the flight attendants this time are HOTTT. That one who just did the seatbelt check, Mmm... Can she just turn back around and unbuckle me? Haha, wouldn't that be funny, if they stopped the safety check, just so that I could pee? Excuse me, everyone, this guys's gotta pee! Haha...
I wonder if he got off work early today. I told him I was leaving today, so he knows, but if he cared he would have texted me something, right? but maybe he's just waiting until I land because he wants to surprise me with something sweet like the last time he texted, maybe he was trying to be sweet. It was like "Don't think too much, just have a fun time with your family, and don't forget to go to the dumpling place!" I wonder if he asked his boss for time off yet.
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